My stomach’s doing flip flops.
A few things happened recently that set me a little on edge, both with excitement and embarrassment.
First: I got a job. A job away from home and the computer and the sewing machine.
I will be an Educational Assistant in our local school district. I had been considering applying for a while, and the hubs and I always had it in mind that I would “Go Back To Work” after the boys were in school for full days. I cringe a little when I say go back to work. I don’t feel like I ever really stopped working, and any stay at home mom can tell you its a 24/7 job. I think last year was my first year with actual hours of quiet and alone time. I didn’t use those hours the way I had intended, and so it was time to move forward in a different way.
I think this will be good. Its only a half day schedule, but, I tend to work best under pressure, and I think that my sewing creativity may actually improve when I am back to night work only. We’ll see. I have hope.
All that being said, and now that the interview is over, whew. I haven’t been to a face to face interview in a very long time. I went in with a positive feeling and attitude, but I was nervous as all get out!
I think those nerves are still messing with me a little a week later. I sent out my emails for seeking permissions for this next months Sew Mama Sew column. I tried a different format and ended up getting a lot of responses about the email being impersonal and vague. I felt horrible. I hate getting spam emails, and I did not want to come across that way. So I responded, and re sent several emails. I do thank those I contacted for being patient with me!
It leaves me reflecting on my time as a small crafty blogger. I have kept this space somewhat impersonal with only visual glimpses into my life at home. I meant it to be about the crafts, the creations, the creativity. Sometimes all those things jumbled up in the clutter of everyday life. And so I need a little journal entry to cleanse my palette.
I have met a lot of very incredible people along this journey so far. I am inspired by many and have had some friendships come and go. Some leaving me feeling a little dumped, others a natural progression of our communication. All in all learning experiences. Even if a precious few are very disheartening and sad.
I think blogging for me is a journal of my creativity. A visual bragging platform, but also a place to share with others. I think its time to get back to the ideas that led me here, and the sharing. So I am working on my tutorials and sewing guides page to get the links in order, and adding recipes as well. Bear with me while I work on that.
But I never meant it to be an earning platform. It was always just for me, and I thank you for joining me here.
Time to shake off the funk and move on to the next project!