Some days, you start out feeling so confident. The sewing is going amazing, everything is falling where it should and the look is working out.
When I am feeling a little overwhelmed I take the time to do a small project. In this case, I decided to try Madalynne’s Sierra pattern. It went together great and everything fit as it was supposed to. I was running a little low on coordinating lace:elastics:notions ratio So this set is a little mixed in colors. One alteration I made was to add a back “T” strap. I don’t like halters. I tend to start looking like a turtle and get a weird neck ache after wearing any halter too long. The extra strap really helped.
While I was on a roll, I picked up more elastics and notions at Mill End, and then went to work on a long overdue project for a friend. I am getting ready to send her the mushroom dress, and her birthday is around this time, so I thought I would make that Watson she had asked for and a little Nora panty to coordinate.
Nora comes with a full back option as well, but this was a specific request. I just hope it fits. We don’t live close to each other, so I will have to get feedback after she receives it. If all goes well, hopefully I can get it together and make her a few more. I’m not sure how I like the adjustable sides. I personally love string bikini, but when I make more, I think I am going to make them with the sides set. This is the first pair I have made, and they could have been a lot better, but they will work perfect to check the size.
I have had my confidence shaken on a monthly repeat. These projects really helped me feel accomplished, but also, that I really do know what I am doing. I’m not naturally a combative person, nor do I handle aggressive criticism well, really at all. If I am being completely honest, my ability to filter out the hard negative thoughts gets harder the more I perceive failure. Like most people, I respond better to positive critique.
I’ve been really grateful to get suggestions, help, and learn new skills and methods. I’ve been more inspired in the last year than I have in twice that. But, I’ve also had to develop a thicker skin. That seems to separate me more and more from the people around me.
I’ve always felt that a certain level of vulnerability yields the heart in any project. But, maybe that’s the problem. I approach each project as an artistic expression, rather than a craftsman manufacturing a perfect product.
This is showing in the boys too. I’ve been having a harder time relating to them in a positive way. Especially my elder child. I feel terrible after they leave for school and I realize that I have been sarcastic and guarded all morning. Or that all I can think of is going back to bed…
They have been dishin’ it right back and suffering with their social relationships as well. I can’t say that it is all my fault, or that it is anyone’s fault. Growing up is hard. No matter how old you are.
I am just reminded again that maybe my problems are not important because those two loves of mine are the absolutely most important thing. Helping them find their way in the world is my mission. Challenge accepted.
How do you handle the negative around you? Are you able to constantly look at the brighter side, the glass half full? Do you have any inspirational suggestions?